To whom it may concern,
I am fully aware that I have missed the first few weeks of this "weekly blog" thing, but better late than never, right? A great many things have occurred in my life in the last three weeks and I feel that I would like to share them with you... Whoever you are.
First of all, I realized the importance of having good friends in your life. I do believe I have blogged about my friends in the past, but this is a lesson I keep learning. One friend in particular is Maggie Holt. Maggie is an extraordinarily optimistic person for which the world is a better place. Maggie, welcome back from the imaginary land of Kairos. I hope to visit someday.
I remembered that at the age of two I was on the cover of a swim magazine doing swiming-ish things. I also remembered that I rather like water and someday hope to visit a lake. A real lake. I live by a lake, but it's a fake lake. There are a lot of fake things about the neighborhood in which I live (fake-brown people, fake bricks on the fronts of houses, fake grass...).
I just realized that I could probably say anything I want on here because nobody reads this. So, it's sort of a blessing in disguise. I can use this as a diary of sorts. Speaking of diaries, I want to watch Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets but cannot find the disk. My boyfriend and I had movie night one day and to our dismay could not find the disk. Sad beans.
I realized that I am not ready for college or life or anything, but I'd better get ready as it is coming whether I like it or not. I am having a bit of trouble letting go of my childhood, or what is left of it. I just got comfortable here and now I'm being kicked out. Go figure.
I realized that playing the cello is the shit and no one can ever take that from me, except maybe arthritis. I want to play the flute but my teacher (who allegedly has my best interest at heart) doesn't want me to. *Ahem*
I realized that no matter how dark the clouds are, or bleak the situation seems to be, there is always something better waiting on the other side. I realized that I am very much like my mother in that I am tenacious and don't give up. Ever. You will be hard pressed to see me fully quit something (unless you watch me jog).
I realized that though I love my friends dearly, they are cynical and entirely unhelpful in times of extreme strife. I love you all.
Life's good.
